Saturday, March 23, 2013

City of the Nephilim

What the Rail Boys say is what Rail Boys have always said: That someplace, out, out down the line, there’s a place that’s different. Better. That the tracks will lead them there, to that untouched corner or abandoned station and that they’ll know it when they see it. That when the train goes rumbling by their utopia, they’ll recognize they’ve found it and that they’re there.

When they’re there, then the Rail Boys will leap out of their traveling closets and they’ll take up a new, perhaps more sedentary life in the perfect place they’ll have found.

They say meanwhile, we’ll all still be huddled and hiding our lives away back here.

Back here, in the City of the Nephilim.

The Rail Boys, they take us out to the yard and they show us around because they feel some sort of camaraderie. We are what they are: Half-man. Half-vermin. Scurrying in the dark places. Living off crumbs. You know what I mean…

They show us how not to be seen, if we ever choose to go their way. To join them. They show us how to keep to the shadows. How to avoid the alarms, a camera over here, a guard over there. We listen, but the rail yards aren’t different than hiding in plain sight in the streets. Not really.

And we’ll never go. We Gutter Kids are realists. We know the Nephilim have gobbled up all the world, everywhere, every last bit of it, and we know those Rail Boys are chasing themselves a rainbow.

Gutter Kids of the city peer up through manhole covers, out of painted-over warehouse windows, from burned-out Buicks and piles of newspapers under city park benches and bus stops. We can hear the Nephilim – the giants who own this town – stomping on down the streets again, beating their chests again, and comparing cock sizes and bank accounts, long before they can ever see us. They’re descended from the gods and their heads bump the clouds and their towers are chock full of gold.

They could not see us even if they were looking for us, and they’re not looking for us, and that’s the way we like it.

How we know they can’t see us is that we offer neither potential profit nor potential threat to the Nephilim, and that equals invisible in their world, hurray.

We make our lives right here, right where we are, tap-tap-tap, under the floorboards at the foot of their towers. I mean, why wait, just hoping some better time or some better place that might never come along happens to come along? Our underground cities we make from cardboard and from discarded bits of their metal and stone. It’s held together with twine and with masking tape or with whatever else comes along our way.

You, well, you never see us, either, not unless one of us gets too lost or too drunk or too crazy and wanders off into some Randall’s parking lot to hit up soccer moms for quarters. And no, you’re not a Nephilim – although once, long ago, you had pipe dreams of joining their ranks, didn’t you? – but still, you don’t see us.

So we scamper down alleys from sewers to dumpsters and we’re wearing your grandma’s old secondhand sweaters. You could not see us even if you were looking for us, and you’re not looking for us, and that’s the way we like it.

This is all what we built for ourselves, ever since some time no one remembers. We love it as much as it can be loved. But once in a long while – oh, maybe once every third or fourth blue moon – all of us Gutter Kids climb from our Gutter Kid gutters. It’s late in the night and the citys deserted and we climb up the Towers of the Nephilim.

Up and up, up towards the clouds. The forty-seventh floor, now the forty-eighth. Up and up and up some more.

And when we finally climb to the very tip-top, then we turn and we look out at the city, and down at the rail yard, and down at the next train snaking along that is carrying the Rail Boys away.

We’ll never go. We Gutter Kids are realists.

But still, if it should so happen that they find something out there, somewhere, find a place that’s a little bit different, perhaps they will send us back word.
***Fantastic photos by Mike Brodie***


  1. nephilim - huge concept - like your take on this concept

    first thought - send me an angel, amazon type with big boobs!

    second thought...

    Wise man said just walk this way
    To the dawn of the light
    The wind will blow into your face
    As the years pass you by

    Hear this voice from deep inside
    It's the call of your heart
    Close your eyes and you will find
    Passage out of the dark

    Here I am
    Will you send me an angel
    Here I am
    In the land of the morning star

    Wise man said just find your place
    In the eye of the storm
    Seek the roses along the way
    Just beware of the thorns

    1. be back in a bit - hot day - need a couple three cold ones

    2. OK... the middle man

      Being a Popeye the sailor man type Dude, I am reminded of Ponce De Leon and other bigger than life Navigators

      Back in the day, Navigators would boldly go and attain finances for their own adventures from the greedy giants.

      These Navigators became giants that are remembered more than the giants that financed their adventures.

      how cool is that?

    3. There isn't a physical New World for us today, though. I have to make my independence right here and now.

      It's cool and it doesn't really on Ferdinand and Isabella.

  2. “But I reckon I got to light out for the Territory ahead of therest, because Aunt Sally she's going to adopt me and sivilize me, and I can't stand it. I been there before.” - Mark Twain

    I suppose he was right. And stuff....

    1. I'm not entirely convinced there is such a thing as being civilized.

      It seems more and more like that is really just being complaisant. Trusting that however the fight between the Giants turns out, it will be for the best to follow.

      Twain was almost always right.

    2. Following, as you've probably figured out by now, isn't exactly my style.... ;)

    3. Haha...

      You have to follow in some things. I mean, I do. I tried to be entirely a self-made woman, but there's no time for that.


  3. Invisible yes. I like your definition. Neither offering threat nor hope for exploitation invisible is the right word. Unless they need a leg breaker. Take the cash. As soon as the job is done its back to invisible

    1. Also, if we start making too much noise, they will throw a couple cans of RAID out to take care of the problem so they don't have to hear it anymore.

      Other than that, it's like two different planets!

  4. It reminds me of the Gogol Bordello song, "Wonderlust King." But after reading your take on living free on the open road with the occasional drunken stumblings into a Randall's parking lot, I can't help but think their medical insurance is probably terrible.

    1. The extent of my knowledge about Gogol Bordello is the "Underground" song used in the movie, "Wristcutters." But still, I'd trust them with my life...

      For most of the folks who have foregone houses, the dental plan sucks. This often becomes an even more immediate and obvious issue than the medical.

  5. If comparing cock sizes and bank accounts is wrong, then I don't want to be right. Nothing beats seeing the look on someone's face when you show them that sweet triple digit number nestled safely inside that bank account.

    1. I hear girls have a 3-3-3 rule these days when it comes to guys: Must be at least 3 inches long, 3 foot tall, and make 3-digits a year.

      I think I have that right...

  6. I have to say that, after reading this, I understood none of it.

    Is there something wrong with me?

    1. No, you seem to be reflecting the general consensus.

      I like this one. But that doesn't always mean anybody else will.


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